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Wednesday, 10 September 2014

Bruised



I am not sure why I was tearful this morning. I was aware of not wanting to face anyone or tell anyone. I have low blood pressure at the moment which is making me feel dizzy and nauseous. I have also had the largest bruise of my life which I presume has something to do with my taking Warfarin although my INR seems stable.

While I was wondering and trying to escape the tears, I remembered about being gentle with myself. I also decided to do a rainbow labyrinth mandala meditation with a focus on being and feeling bruised. I did this even though what i wanted to do was lie down. Every mandala I do takes on a life of her own and today, as usual, I found myself lost in the colour and the process. I had been praying for the bruise to disburse but was not focussing on this as I painted so I was surprised when this emerged. By the end of the process I was no longer feeling tearful and I was reminded that all feelings are temporary.